Every Choice Comes With A Little Regret...But In The End...It's A Wonderful Life...

So today I decided that I was going to watch "It's A Wonderful Life" the old classic movie...the one that a bunch of people watch on Christmas Eve.  My parents used to watch "It's A Wonderful Life" when ever they wrapped Christmas Presents and I have just always enjoyed watching it.

The story of a man who is more important to his town than he thinks he is, although he always thought that he'd missed out on his life.  He regretted everything.  He wished that he'd never been born.  And that's where the story takes its turn.  George Baily begins to realize that things are a lot different since he wished he'd never been born.  The miser of the town has it named after him.  The bar that his friend used to own is no longer his.  His brother is an only child.  His wife is a old maid.   (She said in the movie that she would have been an old maid if not for George, and he gets to see just how much she meant that.)  And he gets to see first hand just how different things are without him.

Everything is different and NOTHING is the same.  He wished he wasn't born and that's just what happened.  He wasn't born.  I'm sure we all have times where we wish we hadn't been born or that we wish that our lives were different.  But the truth is that things happen for a reason.  There's a reason for everything and everyone.  Everyone has a purpose.  Clearance says something very interesting and very true when George is starting to realize that no one knows who he is.  He says: "Strange, isn't it?  Each man's life touches so many other lives.  When he isn't around, he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?"

Each of our lives touches others.  Its how we react to things and how we grow that effects every other life of every other person that we know.  When we make a decision it doesn't just effect us, but every one else associated with us.  Another vital thing that Clearance says is: "You see, George?  You really had a wonderful life.  Don't you see what a mistake it would be...to throw it away?"  To think that our lives and the decisions that we make only effect us are completely wrong.  Everything that we do effects the lives of everyone else.

Though there are some things in my life that I don't like and wish had turned out differently...I can't say that I feel the same way I did about it before.  Watching "It's A Wonderful Life" not just for the sake of Christmas, but just because has opened my eyes to everything in my life that I've ever wished was different, everything that I wish hadn't happened.

I love my life and I can't imagine it being any other way...my life, though short as it is, is soooo much more important than I ever thought possible.  I love my life.  Because it truly is, a wonderful life...

Until my next ramble,
Nicole Louise

Another Year Older...

My birthday is on Tuesday and I'll be 20.   I can't believe I'll have lived through two decades...wow.  So many things have happened this year.  Mostly good...in fact I can't think of anything bad right now off the top of my head.   My life will be very different by my 21st birthday.

To name a few...

Two things are happening in March...first, my baby sister is turning 15 years old.  She's always been five years younger than me, but for some reason this year has a different feel to it entirely.   Not only does that make me feel old, but she's growing into quite a beautiful and smart young woman.  Whatever happened to my sister when she was five years old and innocent and nothing could hurt her... (except physical anyways) now she's fourteen and I see her hurt almost daily...and most of which is my fault.   I had hurting her...but sometimes its just soooo hard not to.  When I was her age Wesley died.  But she experienced that with me.  The anniversary of his death effects her just as much as it does me...I love my sister and it hurts me to see her hurting.  :\ (you can also read her blog by going to www.completelyrandom-101.blogspot.com she's a great writer!)

Another thing that is happening in March is one of my best friends is getting married.  Bess Doenier is going to marry Marcus Velzen.  Bess and I have been good friends for a long time.  She's one of those people that knows me not just pretty good, but very very good.  She's seen my struggles and my pains and has been there with me through them all.  First time I met Marcus, I actually can't remember, but as I've gotten to know him I've grown to consider him like my brother.  (Not to mention him and Jonathan get along so well...how could I not??)  I couldn't be happier for them!!  :)

Whats going to happen in April I'm not sure but in May my brother and sister will become high school seniors.  Ah...wow.  June brings another two weddings...

The first is one of my very best friends.  Amalia Hoekzema will marry Josh (William Joshua) Mulder.  Amalia is more like a sister than just a best friend.  She's seen me through every struggle in my life and every pain I've ever felt.  Growing up together we didn't really know each other too well...after all, her younger sister is my age and she's three years older than me.  When I was 12 (she was 15) we were working in the nursery at Highland Hills for the first time together (I usually worked with Bethany) and we got to talking.  There wasn't a single thing that we didn't agree completely on.  We're like twins.  Soo alike and soo different at the same time.  We've been friends for a long time and I don't know what I would have done without her in my life.  She's definitely a diamond in the rough.  One in a million.  The one person in my life that I PLAN to be friends with until I'm old and gray.  Amalia is my absolute best friend and I'm sooo glad to have her in my life.

The other wedding is of Melissa Bieber who is marrying Jonathon Lovegrove.  If you know them then you know the story.  Melissa is a good friend and Jon is very much like a brother to me.

July, nothings going on as far as I know.  And in August yet another wedding.  Jonathan's really good friends, Paige Pilarz and Alex Barson are getting married.  I haven't known them very long but they are a great pair.  I'm glad to have the opportunity to know them.  And I'm very glad that Jonathan has such good friends. :)

What happens after that, I'm not sure.  Jonathan will be twenty on the 28th of August.  Then maybe I won't feel as old.  I've got a lot to be thankful for this year...I'm not sure whats going to happen but I'll be sure to blog about it....this was another long one...haha, wonder why I'm writing six books???  'Cause I can never seem to stop typing...haha.

Well, until the next ramble...

Nicole Louise

p.s. a great book to read is...



If you haven't read it I highly recommend it.  Its a great love story (Christian).  Its one I'll always like. :)

A Random Blog for a Not-So-Random Reason...

So I had something written up for a couple days ago and forgot to grab it so that I could type it up on here.  So since I want to update it today regardless, I think I might as well fill you in on whats going on in my life now.

So the past week Jonathan's been sick and has had an annoying headache.  I know he doesn't like them and I definitely don't like them either.  If I had a choice I would probably rather I didn't have a head sometimes when it hurts as much as it does.  Well we were at my house for a little while earlier and my mom had us watch this thing with the family (all except for my dad who was still at work.)  it was called, "The Bethlehem Star."

This was, to say eye opening is an understatement.  It was awe inspiring and jaw-dropping...and even those don't seem to be good enough descriptions.  The person who did all this research is not even a scientist...he's a lawyer.  And what he reveals on this DVD is incredible.

There's also a website which I will copy and paste part of it from.  (To find more info on all of this you can also visit the website at bethlehemstar.net and I encourage you to do so.)

Here is the following taken from bethlehemstar.net...


IT'S AN ASTRONOMICAL MYSTERY. A strange star is claimed to have appeared at the birth of Jesus of Nazareth. This site is an investigation of the story found in the BiblicalGospel of Matthew, a story often called the 'Star of Bethlehem.' It brings the words of Roman and Jewish historians alongside the visions of ancient prophets. It mixes "modern" mathematicians with murderous turmoil in the Roman imperial court. It combines all these with astronomical facts which no one disputes. And it concludes that the star was a real event. Come solve this age-old mystery for yourself...
Scroll, or you can click a heading below to jump to a section:

Setting the Stage The Starry Dance The Day of the Cross What Does this Mean?

 Setting the Stage Overview   (top)

JOHANNES KEPLER paved the way for rediscovery of the Star. He puzzled out the math which drives the heavens. He even used his formulae to search for the Star we seek. But unlike we, Kepler had no computer. With software incorporating Kepler's equations, we can animate ancient skies over the Mid East with great precision. When we do that, the sky comes alive...
THE BIBLE blasts worship of the stars. It even declares the death penalty for star-abuse! So, by seeking the Star of Bethlehem, are we doing something the Bible itself forbids? Actually, the Bible encourages attention to the stars, but only attention of a very specific type...
NEARLY EVERYTHING in the sky has been proposed as the Star of Bethlehem at one time or another. Why? Because investigators often grant surprisingly little regard to clues found in the Bible. But, a close reading of theBook of Matthew uncovers nine specific features of the Star. These qualifications become primary tools in our investigation...
THE NINE CHARACTERISTICS of the Stareliminate most celestial objects as candidates—they just don't measure up. We quickly see what the Star cannot have been. These ancient clues narrow our search dramatically and yield an hypothesis we can test...

Setting the Stage  

 The Starry Dance Overview   (top)

OUR INVESTIGATION KNOCKS OUT most celestial objects as candidates for the Star. But there is one class of stars that might still match the rigorous tests we've extracted from the Book of Matthew: "wandering stars." That will be our hypothesis...
THE BOOK OF REVELATION is a puzzle. An enchanting puzzle, to be sure. And a tantalizing puzzle to one conducting an astronomical investigation, because John's book is full of star imagery. While some of John's vision is enigmatic, some of what he writes unfolds to us with the help of Kepler's Laws...
HUNDREDS OF PLANETARIA worldwidepresent "Star of Bethlehem" Christmas shows. Most don't feel comfortable using the Bible as the center of their performances, so they miss much of what we are finding. But one celestial event they nearly always include is a show stopper from an astronomer's perspective. The brightest event of our Magus' career occurred in 2 BC...
CAN A STAR STOP? Can and did. In the Southern sky, over the little town of Bethlehem...

The Starry Dance  

 The Day of the Cross Overview   (top)

SOME ARE OBVIOUS, SOME OBSCURE. But there are many clues to the date of the crucifixion of Jesus of Nazareth: violent Roman history, the Jewish calendar, startling ancient prophecies, a somber night sky. Each adds data for our investigation. We can deduce an important clue from the gospel records: Jesus must have died in a year when the 14th day of the Jewish month of Nisan fell on a Friday...
IT WAS DANGEROUS to be Roman if you knew the wrong people. Tiberius Caesar ruled the Empire during the time of Christ. He was not a hesitant or forgiving man. A plot to take his throne was discovered—the plot bathed Italy in blood—and it appears to have had a role in the execution of Jesus...
FAR FROM JERUSALEM a Jewish exileremained true. True to his people. True to his god. True to the land of his birth. The Bible records his mysterious vision: an angel speaking of the death of Messiah. And this vision, which at first seems obscure, can be gently pressed to reveal secrets—the timing of an execution to occur centuries later...
PETER WAS UP—it was time to speak. He had to address the rowdy crowd. A strange scene was unfolding. It was less than two months after the crucifixion. Worshipers from dozens of nations were in Jerusalem for a Jewish holiday. Suddenly, the disciples of Jesus began praising God, but in out-of-towners' languages! Peter stood, and he used the skyas he explained...
STARS ARE ANCHORS for historians. Scholars dance when ancient texts describe the sky. The heavens are so predictable that a description of the sky in a text often enables precise dating of ancient events. Our last clue for the day when Jesus of Nazareth was crucified comes from the sky. And it's the clincher...

The Day of the Cross  

 What Does this Mean? Overview   (top)

IF THE BIBLE IS TRUE, God has given signs to men throughout history. There is a common response by those who see wondrous things. We often draw near to understand more fully. That is what the Magi did when they saw the Star. The rediscovered Star is a sign to us today. So, we draw near to learn its meaning...
IF THE STAR was a natural event, does that mean it was not a miracle? Perhaps just the opposite. For, if the stars were arranged to create a sign, that arrangement is as old as time. A Star which is part of the orderly natural universe is a Clockwork Star. A sign put in place before men walked the Earth...

What Does this Mean?  

So after having read that all, doesn't that make you want to learn more??  I sure do...to know that when God set up the entire universe that he also put in the stars the date of conception of Jesus, the day that the Wise Men reached the toddler Jesus (which if he's right was December 25 3 A.D.) and if he truly planned it all out we truly do serve an AMAZING and ALL-POWERFUL God.  Hallelujah to the one who ordained the heavens.  This sure makes me want to read my Bible ALL the way through to see if there's anything else in this.  Please buy this DVD its WELL-WORTH a watch and I suggest, buy several copies and give some away as gifts come this next Christmas season.

What does the headache have to do with this?  Well, just watch it and you'll get goosebumps and a headache too I'm sure.  On the radio right now in the background is this song...I'm not sure who its by or who sings it but what he says is, "Faith makes all the difference in the world."  Well faith is what we believe and I think we all need to know this.

Watch it...you'll be glad you did!!

Forgive and Forget?

Is it true no matter what, that when someone offends or hurts you, that its easier to forgive and forget?  Well what if they've never apologized and continue to offend, should it then still be easier to forgive and forget?  If you asked me I'd tell you that some times its ridiculously difficult to forgive someone when they keep hurting you and forgetting it, well thats not easy either.  But then I wondered, does someone have to apologize to be forgiven?  I've heard several opinions on that one, but here are my thoughts on that, but before I get there let me explain where I'm coming from...

In mid-May of 2007 I found out that I'd be working at Lake Ann Camp (www.lakeanncamp.com, I mentioned it briefly in a previous post) and I decided that I wanted to get to know some of the people I'd be working with.  There was one girl and two guys I got pretty close to in the weeks prior to camp.

The two guys I happened to like.  (And sadly it was based on to weeks of knowing each other and having never seen each other before.)  Well, anyways, before either one of them got to camp I'd found out that one of them liked me also.  I was overjoyed.

Well, camp started and that first week was brutal, let me tell ya.  People kept asking me if we were dating and when I'd say no they'd ask why, to which I didn't know the answer.  Well, after the first week of camp was done we started dating.  We dated the rest of the summer and for a couple months after, but it was long-distance and hard.

Long story short, he broke up with me in mid-October and stopped talking to me altogether in November.  I tried to maintain a friendship but he made doing so VERY difficult.  By the following summer (2008) I was able to work at the camp again.   It was this summer that I met one of my good friends who I didn't know knew him.  To this day I'm still glad that I didn't know that from the get go, because it would have made that summer very, very long.

Anyways, that summer was very hard for me.  He and I had walked EVERY inch of that camp together and thus there were memories of him EVERYwhere.  In July my dad ended up getting hospitalized for blood-clots in his lungs and everything was turned upside down.  I then made the decision to go home.  (Other reason being I saw my ex everywhere and I was sick of watching the guy I liked be with another girl. =/ )  By September of that year I'd decided that it was high time I have him a piece of my mind.  The conversation was brief and fairly rude (on his part), but I was okay...he'd finally answered me flat out.

As the year drew to a close I was content.  Single and very content.  By mid-January I wasn't expecting more drama, boy related drama.  (I'll explain this in another post.)  The months went on without a word and I was still content.  No longer single, but I was still content that he wasn't talking to me.

Just the other day I was thinking about patience.  I hadn't contacted my ex in almost a year and decided I'd give it one more go, if it blew-up in my face again, I didn't care, BUT if it didn't...lets just say I was counting on that.

I sent him a long-ish e-mail going over what'd been going on in my life since we last talked and telling him I hoped all was well with him.  I expected nothing in return, but it was worth a try.  I'd forgiven him long before and knew if we were supposed to e-mail or talk that God would make it happen.  Later that night I happened to be doing some major catching up with my cousin (who I haven't talked to in quite a while) on Myspace and adding some photos when loe and behold he signs on.  "Seriously?!"  Was my immediate thought.

I figured he'd be on his typical 2-3 minutes, but when it reached 15 minutes, I'll be honest, the urdge to message him was HUGE!  But I resolved not to message him, after all, if we were supposed to talk God would work it out, right?  Right.  So I sat there another 20-30 minutes chatting with my cousin when he messaged me!  I was in shock, but I replied to his question.

I wasn't expecting him to talk long and wouldn't have been surprised if he logged off on me BUT he talked.  Not a deep thought provoking conversation, but a light surfacy conversation.  Which was huge since we hadn't talked in FOREVER.  I didn't care that it was surfacy, we were having a conversation and that's all that mattered to me.  Well a little over an hour later he said he had to go, said goodnight, waited for me to reply and got off.

Well we're not best friends nor so I expect a friendship of any kind from this, BUT I've been able to forgive him fully and I've been able to successfully put offences behind me and have been able to thank him for what he HAS given me as a result.  From all of this I some how ended up with the greatest boyfriend ever, who makes me happy everyday.    :)

My ex may have hurt me in the past (and hurt me a lot) BUT I truly have been able to forgive and forget.

Jesus answered Peter saying "seventy times seven"...the point isn't that we forgive someone one hundred forty times, its that we never stop forgiving them.  He came to save the whole world and he's forgiven me so why then should I harbor pains an seek revenge?  Especially when forgiveness feels this good??

Do you need to forgive anyone today?  It'll make you feel better, trust me...

it is easier to forgive and forget

-forgive the offence and

-CHOOSE to forget the pain

you'll be glad you did!

Well that's all for today's ramble,

Until the next,

Nicole Louise

Everything In Life Happens For A Reason

The Twilight Saga is amazing.  I've read the books numerous times and love reading them again.  I've never given my total opinion on the books before so I'll do so now.

Basic Gist Of Twilight: Bella (human) falls in love with Edward (vampire).

Sounds corny doesn't it?  Yeah thats what I thought at first too.  You see, I'm a VERY picky reader.  If a book doesn't grab my attention from the first three chapters I would rather not even bother reading the rest...no matter how good the reviews are. In the summer of 2008 just weeks before Breaking Dawn was released, I still had never read the books and cared nothing for them, let alone, wanting to read them.  There was no willpower to read these books.

At the camp that I worked at Lake Ann Camp (www.lakeanncamp.com) all the girls there seemed to be reading the vampire love stories but I still didn't care to read them, no matter how many of them tried to convince me that it would be worth reading.  I was DETERMINED that there was no way I was going to EVER like or love these books, and to keep from doing that I decided that I wasn't even going to read them.

I got home from camp in mid-July and it was while I was at my friends house and she had just finished reading Twilight.  You see, my best friend and I are like twins, there's RARELY something to disagree on.  She told me I HAD to read them...and when she says a book is good...well, how can I NOT read it??

So I decided that she liked the book enough that I was probably going to like it too so I figured that buying it would probably be the best idea.  So I headed to Schulers books with my sister whose obsessed with anime and wanted to go buy some.  It was there that I picked up Twilight on a whim.  I'll never regret that decision.

I had Twilight read and finished in a matter of three days.  As soon as I finished Twilight I just knew I HAD to get New Moon.

Gist Of New Moon: Edward (vampire) leaves Bella (human) for what seems to be no reason.  Bella (human) becomes friends with Jacob (Tribe Member).  But does Edward come back?  Does Bella leave everything to go to be with Edward?  Does Bella decide she wants nothing to do with Edward and chooses to be with Jacob instead??  You'll have to read the book to find out.

New Moon was a heart-wrenching book for me to read.  After all, Edwards break-up with Bella made me feel an awful lot like my ex-boyfriend was breaking up with me all over again.  I had to put the book down after chapter three for a whole day.  I was hurting with so much raw emotions.  When I'd read Twilight I felt like I WAS Bella and I LOVED Edward.  Yes I too was one of those crazy girls who were in love with a fictional character.  But you see, Edward had it all.  And to just leave her in New Moon....???  It didn't make sense.

When I'd gotten the resolve to pick the book back up I was maddened at her budding friendship with Jacob. She wasn't supposed to be with Jacob, she was supposed to be with Edward.  I wanted to throw my book at the wall many a time.  It was around this time the Breaking Dawn released, I hadn't even gotten to that point in the series to know, let alone care that the book was coming out.

Once the book got to chapter eighteen I was in love with the series again.  The end made my heart melt of all the bitterness I'd had for it the first two thirds of the book.  As soon as I finished New Moon after a weeks worth of reading, I knew I wanted to read Eclipse just as bad.

Gist Of Eclipse: Edward's (vampire) back and Bella (human) seems to act as though nothing ever truly happened.  Jacob (werewolf) hates Edward for coming back because he loves Bella.  Victoria (bad vampire) is out for revenge against Edward and wants to kill Bella.  What happens at the end??  You'll have to read it for yourself.

Eclipse was pretty good for the most part, Bella and Alice's steadily growing friendship had me smiling.  Alice is the perfect best friend.  And reminds me of a combination of my best friends.  Alice the care-free vampire sister of Edward.  Rosalie's explaining why she disliked Bella so much still made me hate her character, but I understood her a lot better.  To which I am thankful about.

There was one scene however in Eclipse that infuriated me to the point of wanting to rip the pages from the book.  Isn't it amazing how you can identify with characters in a fictional book so much so that you want to hurt some and personally know others??  Well thats how I felt about these books.  Bella was me.  Edward was my knight in shining armor.  Alice was my best friend.  And the rest of the Cullen's were my family.  Jacob at this point was strattling the very fine line between best male friend and enemy.

In the scene that I'm referencing Edward and Bella are in the mountains and Jacob has to lay in a sleeping bag with Bella (who is bundled up from head to toe) because he is burning heat (because he's a werewolf) and she's freezing (because its snowing and there in the mountains, oh and did I mention, 'cause she's human).  Well anyways, in this scene Edward is stuck listening to all of Jacob's thoughts about Bella while he holds her close and Edward is forced to sit as far away from her as he can inside the tent.  Now I'm not a genius, but I know that my boyfriend would be very jealous and infuriated in this same situation.  True, Edward loves her and would rather have her stay warm than freeze, but that conversation between Edward and Jacob is like one of dominance.  Edward vs. Jacob.  Not that that wasn't obvious in New Moon and all throughout Eclipse thus far, but it seemed to give a whole new meaning to it.  I wanted to cry for Edward.  This just wasn't fair to him.  Ugh, but enough about that, read it and you'll understand.

Once I'd finished Eclipse I immediately went out and got Breaking Dawn.

Gist Of Breaking Dawn: Edward (vampire) marries Bella (still human) and Jacob (werewolf) runs away.   There's a lot more to the description than this but I don't want to give too much away if you haven't read it.  If you have, well then you obviously know what happens in the story.

Breaking Dawn is my favorite in the series.  I only ever heard two things about this book just before I read it and they were 1) Edward and Bella get married and 2) They have a baby.  Edward and Bella's wedding was small and very nice.  In the Cullen's house of course.  Their baby they have exactly one month after their honeymoon.  The conception of a half-vampire-half-human (according to Stephenie Meyer) makes them grow rapidly to reach the adulthood and permanence of their life soon.  Most mothers (in fact none have) survived the birth.

Edward's determination to save Bella is incredible.  Once the baby is born Renesmee Carlie Cullen.  (first and middle names are a cute combination of both mothers names for the first and both fathers for the second.  Genius by Stephenie Meyer in naming her.)  The plot thickens when a mistaken vampire sees Nessie (as she's nicknamed) in the forest with her parents hunting and reports to the volturie about creating a vampire child, which had been banned because of their unpredictability.  The Cullen's are forced to call on all of their vampire friends to come and witness that Renesmee is not a threat and wouldn't hurt anyone.  The end of the book is amazing and you end of discovering why Edward has never been able to read Bella's thoughts.  And the epilogue of this book is amazing and I love it.

Well once I finished this book, I'll be honest I was OBSESSED with the series.  I went on HotTopic.com created an account.  Went to amazon.com and created an account and got a whole ton of Twilight merchandise.  I got a shirt, a bag, a key chain, the "Complete Illustrated Movie Companion" (which you can also find on Amazon.com and also bought the soundtrack.  Later my mom bought me the score also.

I took quiz after quiz after quiz each one saying that I was a Twihard.  I'd been happily bitten by Twilight.  Not until the movie came out did I realize just how big this Twilight thing was becoming.  Its amazing the things that people do.  Including the fact that women are now wearing panties that say "Team Taylor" (for Taylor Laughtner who plays Jacob) and "Team Rob" (for Robert Pattinson who plays Edward).  I however am proud to say that I own neither of those. :)

Time has passed and I have for the most part passed out of my Twilight phase but I still love them and probably will for awhile.  If you haven't read Twilight I highly suggest that you do.  If you have, do you think the Twilight stuff have gone slightly (if not totally) out of control?

Well until my next ramble,
Nicole Louise

Since everyone seems to be doing this, I figured I'd join.

Its said, if you can't beat 'em, join 'em. Well I'm joining.

I used to have a blogging website oh so long ago, but I figured I'm a writer I like writing...why am I not still doing it?? Valid question if I do say so myself. So then I started thinking...why ever did I stop blogging in the first place? Haha, turns out I have no idea...I can even remember how to log into my old one.

So I love writing and I'd love to do it as a profession...I have 6 books in the works as of now (it could be more, I'm not totally sure). And they range in SO many different genres that I cannot contain them all to one.

One of the books that I'm the most proud of is not even completed yet. Its a book I've been working on since the death of one of my best friends in 2005. I've written so much rawness into that book. It takes SO much out of me to even write in it today, because as soon as I sit in front of a computer to type anything new, I have to go through and correct what I've already written. Lets just say, I've been tempted to break into tears many a time over the past. God has really used it to help me grow though. I guess I can't complain.

I believe God does things for a reason and that everything has a reason. God gave up the most in his life yet I and many other people I know are always thinking, God, wait to come back until..._________. You fill in the blank. There's always something that we want to happen before then...how selfish can we be?? God sent Jesus and we're all...gee, God thats great but uh, could you do this instead?

People who die or have died don't have a choice anymore. And we never know when we're going to die...why do we feel the need to tell God he can come back when its convenient for us?? If God waits for the WHOLE WORLD to be okay with him coming back it'll never happen. So I and many others need to start being ready for the fact that he IS going to come back when HE wants. Hmm...something to think about.

Well thats a lot for the first post and I don't even know if anyone'll read this...so until my next ramble....

God Bless,

Nicole Louise